It’s Vi’s birthday next month. Wait, what? I looked at her today and suddenly saw a young toddler before my eyes. Who is this GIRL? Gone is the newborn, the fetus booting up on the outside. The snuffling squeaks have been replaced with emphatic cries of UB! (“Up!”) EH! (“That!”) JEH! (general happiness) and NEH-NEH-NEH-NEH-NEH!! … Read More about Who’s That Girl?
Hear Me Roar!
I did it. I casually shared on Facebook that we used donor eggs to have Vi, and it feels really good. The response has been overwhelmingly supportive. I felt that if I had announced that we used donor eggs, it was akin to a confession. And there is nothing to confess. But by sharing an … Read More about Hear Me Roar!
Mother Shrugger!
At this point, I’m fairly open about egg donation. If it comes up and I feel like sharing, I share. If I can’t be bothered to get into it, I don’t. “If I can’t be bothered…” What a difference in attitude! A simple shrug from someone talking about something that’s no big deal. One of … Read More about Mother Shrugger!
Nine Months
Sweet V, Five, four, three, two, one… BAM! It’s 08:37: Nine months ago right NOW, you were born. You are sleeping and eating, and I am feeling quite emotional about it all. 08:38: They say it goes by so fast, and I already know this. Two weeks ago you were 37 weeks and one day … Read More about Nine Months
Rainbows and Unicorns
I’m excited to share that I’ve co-founded a new blog! Rainbows and Unicorns* is devoted to parenting after pregnancy loss and infertility. * If a rainbow baby is one born after loss, I suggested a baby is one born after infertility be called a unicorn. A common misconception is that once you have a baby, … Read More about Rainbows and Unicorns
Then and Now
V was born 37 weeks and one day ago today. This means she’s been living outside me for longer than she was inside me. It’s arbitrary, but it feels like an important milestone. Then: 7 lbs 11 oz Now: 23 lbs 8 oz–ish Then: 20.5″ Now: 29″ Then: strawberry blond hair cropped close to her … Read More about Then and Now
Protected: Residual Grief and New Anxiety Flaring Up
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Breasts
A few years ago I flew to London from San Diego and saw an ad in the airport of a woman swimming underwater in a bikini. My first thought was Oh my god, why didn’t they Photoshop her erect nipples? My second thought was, OH MY GOD, I’VE LIVED IN AMERICA FOR TOO LONG. I … Read More about Breasts
Making Friends
So here I am, seven and a half months into this motherhood gig, and I’m trying to make friends with other mamas. It’s harder than you’d think — amiright, ladies? All of our “pre-TTC” friends all live in Europe or the East Coast, but distance is less of an issue than the age gap of … Read More about Making Friends
Postpartum Changes: Body
My body looks and feels quite different to how it used to, since getting pregnant and giving birth. There have been small, welcome changes: the broken blood vessel on the side of my nose got larger during pregnancy, and a few days after I delivered V it magically disappeared! It probably would cost $300 to … Read More about Postpartum Changes: Body
