I had a caesarean birth plan, a list of preferences. But that’s mostly all they were – preferences. Loss and…
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Misoprostol
Protected: The Ugliness of Grief
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First Milestone Date
Today marks the first milestone date: precisely one month or four weeks ago today I stared at the ultrasound screen…
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Gratitude
It was two weeks ago today that I found out there was a problem with my pregnancy. I am still…
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Miscarriage of Justice
At nine minutes past midnight on Sunday March 10th, I had one of the most primal experiences of my life…
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What Miscarriage Feels Like
I should have been 10 weeks today. Instead, I am having a miscarriage. The Misoprostol finally kicked in last night…
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Finding Jizō, Part I
There’s a reason the imagery of a pebble came to me the other day when I was trying to deal…
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Furious and Terrified
I am furious and terrified. I can’t cry, try as I might. The pebble imagery isn’t working today and my…
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Misoprostol, or the Beginning of the End
The pharmacist looked at me kindly as he handed me my prescription: Misoprostol (Cytotec). Four little tablets that I pushed…
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How it All Began
Tuesday February 26, 2013 was a significant date. It marked the one-month anniversary of finding out I was pregnant for…
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