I got my biopsy results back: I don’t have endometritis, and I’ve never been so ungrateful to receive good news.
Ignoring the possibility that it’s a false negative, the fact that my uterus is presumed to be in perfect condition means that we don’t have an explanation for why my first two FETs failed.
Or, I have a few ideas, and they are worrisome:
- Our embryos were damaged during the freezing process. I don’t know how likely this is, because 2 of the 3 embryos that survived the thaw had a post-thaw rating of ‘Excellent’.
- I have secondary infertility, as well as primary. Is that even a thing?
- I lack the Beta 3-Integrin protein essential for implantation—possible because I have endometriosis. Maybe the two weeks I was on Lupron was the missing piece to the implantation puzzle for the cycle that resulted in my daughter. (See: E-tegrity test.) Lupron is the only medication we haven’t included in our FET protocol.
- Something else. Like what…?
Or maybe it was just shitty timing. The first FET may not have worked because I was stricken with a migraine six hours after transfer; the second FET may not have worked because we were very stressed about the possibility that our daughter had been lead-poisoned.
Until I get pregnant or run out of embryos, I guess I just have to live with the uncertainty.