I’m halfway through Keep Lauren Happy Month (aka #KLaHM — although I am officially on a Twitter hiatus for the near future) and so far so good. What am I saying? So far, so very good! I’ve been quite good at setting work boundaries and making time to do nice things for myself. I’ve found … Read More about Keep Lauren Happy Month (#KLaHM)
T-Minus 2 Weeks
Since my baseline appointment last Tuesday, time has been passing more quickly. My days are spent scrambling to finish up various work projects before transfer, and I drew a calendar on my glass whiteboard to cross off the days. My weeks, I realise, are punctuated every few days by an estradiol injection, a new Circle … Read More about T-Minus 2 Weeks
(S)mothered with Anxiety
My BFF and I got our nails done earlier this week. As part of #KLaHM (Keep Lauren Happy Month — less than 3 weeks left!), I treated myself to a mani-pedi. I’ve been avoiding nail polish for months now, but compromised by having my fingernails buffed to a high shine, and made sure my toenail … Read More about (S)mothered with Anxiety
T-Minus 3 Weeks
I’ve been on Lupron now for 10 days. The first injection was a little nerve-wracking, but by the fourth day, DH remarked at how much more confident I am. Gotta love adaptive intelligence! I have a cluster of tiny red dots, like a Strawberry Shortcake doll’s freckles, on either side of my belly button. I … Read More about T-Minus 3 Weeks
The Last Domino Played Was the First to Fall
It’s Saturday. Not since October 5th have I sighed in such a way. Each Saturday brought with it a smarting reminder of how far along I would have been. One year ago today was my first Saturday, when I got my first and only BFP. A final domino placed at the beginning of a line … Read More about The Last Domino Played Was the First to Fall
Statistically Speaking… Well, What Do You Think About These Numbers?
This time a year ago, I was pregnant and didn’t know it yet. A year later, I am neither a mother to a 4-month-old nor am I pregnant again. It hurts. I know, I know, my chance is just around the corner. But it’s just a chance — and fear courses through my veins. I … Read More about Statistically Speaking… Well, What Do You Think About These Numbers?
Dear Nellie
Well, three days ago I wrote an email to Nellie. Judging from my heart-is-pounding tweets, it took me seven minutes to pluck up the courage to hit Send. Here’s what I wrote: Dear lovely [Nellie], Hello!! This is Lauren, the woman you are helping to have a baby. My husband, [DH], and I are so … Read More about Dear Nellie
The First Prick is the Deepest
This is the face of someone who just did her first ever Lupron shot. YEH, BITCHES! I lost my IF virginity at 8.30 this morning!! For those of you who nervously await the day you pop your injectable cherries, after the hand-washing, the ins and outs went a little something like this: Tie pyjama top … Read More about The First Prick is the Deepest
Protected: Today’s a Date I’ll Remember
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Marathon
At 7:30 on Sunday morning, I hauled myself up and got ready for my niece’s baptism at 10am. I was alright on the 45-minute drive to the church. But as soon as I squeezed into the spot that had been saved for us, sandwiched between DH’s parents, I began to feel terrible. In the pew … Read More about Marathon
