For the first time since this ordeal began, I don’t know what to write. How was my day? Well, pretty…
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First Milestone Date
Today marks the first milestone date: precisely one month or four weeks ago today I stared at the ultrasound screen…
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Up and Down and All Around
I’ve cried three times today. The first time I was on my way to my post-op check up. I was…
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A Brighter Day
Today was a brighter day than others have been recently. Like an unwanted shadow, Grief is never far from my…
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Should Have
I should have been 12 weeks’ pregnant today. I should have been getting ready to share our good news. I…
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Living on the Edge… Of Panic
It’s a cool evening after a warm day in San Diego, and the open window lets in a hesitant breeze. …
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Wisdom in a Friend’s Note
A friend of mine wrote me this message. I worry so much that I will never get pregnant again, or…
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Finding Jizō, Part II
Miscarriage seems to be something people don’t really talk about. The grieving period is private, personal, not really discussed. After I…
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Struggling Against the Tide
Today was the lowest day yet. For a long time, I couldn’t get out of bed, even if I wanted…
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Pain
I find physical pain easier to deal with than emotional pain. Even when physical pain takes over your body and…
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