For the first time since this ordeal began, I don’t know what to write. How was my day? Well, pretty…
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suffering
First Milestone Date
Today marks the first milestone date: precisely one month or four weeks ago today I stared at the ultrasound screen…
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Up and Down and All Around
I’ve cried three times today. The first time I was on my way to my post-op check up. I was…
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A Brighter Day
Today was a brighter day than others have been recently. Like an unwanted shadow, Grief is never far from my…
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Should Have
I should have been 12 weeks’ pregnant today. I should have been getting ready to share our good news. I…
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Pain
I find physical pain easier to deal with than emotional pain. Even when physical pain takes over your body and…
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The Day Before Surgery
In about 24 hours’ time, I will be coming out of the PACU (Post Anaesthesia Care Unit). I had my…
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Babybook: Owning My Envy
I am taking a break from Facebook, aka Babybook. It seems all it’s good for the past few years is…
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Furious and Terrified
I am furious and terrified. I can’t cry, try as I might. The pebble imagery isn’t working today and my…
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Hope and Comfort
Before giving birth to me, my mother was pregnant with another baby. She had a miscarriage, and that person wasn’t…
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