I’m escaping to Los Angeles for the night to see a friend who is driving down from San Francisco. It’ll…
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sadness
More Tests
I am back from the doctor’s. Dr. D, the woman who performed my D&C, examined me and said everything looks…
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Watching and Waiting
For our first wedding anniversary, DH presented me with a watch (his slightly broader interpretation of the modern anniversary gift…
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Butterfly
Vivir con miedo es como vivir en medias ~ Spanish Proverb I’ve been conquering some fears recently — or trying…
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Mother’s Day
Today is Mother’s Day in the US and it’s halfway over. I’ve never much cared for it, my own mother…
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I Am Still Standing
Me, a moment ago: wearing my Jizo pendant; hugging my Mizuko Kuyo Peace Lily; that is being nourished by my…
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Metaphor
I made a piece of temporary beach art: Three tiny pebbles of different colours placed atop a large pebble. Seconds…
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First Milestone Date
Today marks the first milestone date: precisely one month or four weeks ago today I stared at the ultrasound screen…
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A Brighter Day
Today was a brighter day than others have been recently. Like an unwanted shadow, Grief is never far from my…
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Struggling Against the Tide
Today was the lowest day yet. For a long time, I couldn’t get out of bed, even if I wanted…
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