With no explanation as to why my last two FETs failed, I am throwing a lot at this next one. Here’s a list of all the stuff I’m doing to prepare for this next FET—some things are tweaks to the last two protocols, some are on my acupuncturist’s recommendation, and some are of my own … Read More about From Acupuncture to Zzz
Quick Anecdote: Conception Story
V. is almost 2½ and I’ve been telling her how she was conceived since I was pregnant. I had a funny little conversation with her the other night: Me: Who gave the sperm to make you? V: No one! Me: Haha, no—Daddy did! Who gave the oocyte eggs to make you? V: [Our donor’s name!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!] … Read More about Quick Anecdote: Conception Story
It’s Not My Uterus
I got my biopsy results back: I don’t have endometritis, and I’ve never been so ungrateful to receive good news. Ignoring the possibility that it’s a false negative, the fact that my uterus is presumed to be in perfect condition means that we don’t have an explanation for why my first two FETs failed. Or, … Read More about It’s Not My Uterus
Hysteroscopy Friday
Back to regular (albeit private) scheduling, after a hiatus! When you transfer a chromosomally normal embryo into a woman who has had no problems getting pregnant in the past, and both times result in a categorically Not Pregnant, there are really only two possible explanations: either there’s a problem with the embryos or there’s a … Read More about Hysteroscopy Friday
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Hibernation
We’ve had seven weeks of nearly non-stop heavy rain, which have kept us indoors. The rains, which started a few days before Banjo died, are beginning to dry up. He died at 5pm, and it was dark outside in December. The other day it was still light at 5pm. It feels mean to move on … Read More about Hibernation
WTF. (No, really… What. The. Fuck.)
Two failed FETs. We’ve gone through three embryos in two FETs (one didn’t survive the thaw). As far as I’m concerned, I should be pregnant by now, and I’m not. After everything I’ve been through, it seemed like removing my DNA from the equation would be the solution. I’ve learnt it’s not that simple. I haven’t … Read More about WTF. (No, really… What. The. Fuck.)
Life After Death (Banjo, Part 3)
This is the last in a 3-part series of posts. Read Part 1 here and Part 2 here. ♥ I’m a spiritual atheist. Maybe that’s an oxymoron for ‘pseudo-Buddhist’. I do not believe in any god or higher power, but I do believe that we are all connected. However our body disintegrates—earth, water, or fire—our … Read More about Life After Death (Banjo, Part 3)
The Last Hour of Banjo (Part 2)
This is the second in a 3-part series of posts. Read Part 1 here and Part 3 here. ♥ In spite of my being aware of all these last moments, I didn’t think that the last time I hugged my dog would be after I towelled him off in the trunk of our car. I offered … Read More about The Last Hour of Banjo (Part 2)
The Last Days of Banjo (Part 1)
This is the first in a 3-part series of posts. Read Part 2 here and Part 3 here. ♥ Xmas was a distraction. My sister’s visit was a distraction. Between the moments of family obligations, giving V a fun time, and laughter with my sister, the cold truth crept over me and settled on my … Read More about The Last Days of Banjo (Part 1)
