The past couple of weeks I feel like I’ve been finding my groove with V. I’m finding the time to post more often, so this is a quick post to say that I probably won’t post anything in the next couple of weeks. The reason is a happy one.
My mum and stepdad live in Spain. The recession affected us all quite badly, so apart from my grandmother’s funeral in September 2013, we haven’t spent more than two days with each other since 2008. Yep, in seven years I’ve spent a total of 20 days in their company. It’s been hard sometimes. After a while you just get used to it.
When I went over to London for my grandmother’s funeral, it was — as family gatherings en masse tend to be — intense and distracted. And I was on the cusp of doing IVF (or so I thought). In actual fact, I was days away from learning about my chromosomal wonkiness which would plot the final course to having V. In other words, the last time I saw my family, DEIVF was on my radar, but not yet something I had committed myself to. Rather, it was something I was desperately hoping to avoid!
There have been many changes since. Fast forward to: I’m a mom. It still puts a smile on my face to realise and remember that I finally get to say that. I’m this lovely little baby’s mother. WOW!
Tomorrow, V will meet her other grandmother (and step-granddad) for the first time. I am so happy! Tomorrow, I meet my mother again, this time as a mother myself. I wonder how she will see me now. I am the same person, but I am changed.
This week, please send your good vibes to 2ndBedroom, Mercury_Mom, ArwenRoseMRKH, LezGetPregnant, and Waiting4Bumble (who I hung out with today and Friday! Yay!). In many different ways, this is a big week for each of them.