I did a fairly bold thing today. I outed myself on Facebook as someone about to start an FET cycle. I’ve been totally open about egg donation (and parenting after DEIVF) for about 18 months, but that was when V was nearly a year old. Last week, once again I found myself congratulating someone for being open about their fertility…
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With no explanation as to why my last two FETs failed, I am throwing a lot at this next one. Here’s a list of all the stuff I’m doing to prepare for this next FET—some things are tweaks to the last two protocols, some are on my acupuncturist’s recommendation, and some are of my own doing. (Obviously, this is not…
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V. is almost 2½ and I’ve been telling her how she was conceived since I was pregnant. I had a funny little conversation with her the other night: Me: Who gave the sperm to make you? V: No one! Me: Haha, no—Daddy did! Who gave the oocyte eggs to make you? V: [Our donor’s name!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!] Me (now squealing!): Who grew…
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I got my biopsy results back: I don’t have endometritis, and I’ve never been so ungrateful to receive good news. Ignoring the possibility that it’s a false negative, the fact that my uterus is presumed to be in perfect condition means that we don’t have an explanation for why my first two FETs failed. Or, I have a few ideas,…
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Back to regular (albeit private) scheduling, after a hiatus! When you transfer a chromosomally normal embryo into a woman who has had no problems getting pregnant in the past, and both times result in a categorically Not Pregnant, there are really only two possible explanations: either there’s a problem with the embryos or there’s a problem with the uterus. It’s…
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We’ve had seven weeks of nearly non-stop heavy rain, which have kept us indoors. The rains, which started a few days before Banjo died, are beginning to dry up. He died at 5pm, and it was dark outside in December. The other day it was still light at 5pm. It feels mean to move on without him. I feel like…
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Two failed FETs. We’ve gone through three embryos in two FETs (one didn’t survive the thaw). As far as I’m concerned, I should be pregnant by now, and I’m not. After everything I’ve been through, it seemed like removing my DNA from the equation would be the solution. I’ve learnt it’s not that simple. I haven’t been happy with my clinic…
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This is the last in a 3-part series of posts. Read Part 1 here and Part 2 here. ♥ I’m a spiritual atheist. Maybe that’s an oxymoron for ‘pseudo-Buddhist’. I do not believe in any god or higher power, but I do believe that we are all connected. However our body disintegrates—earth, water, or fire—our physical self is reduced to…
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This is the second in a 3-part series of posts. Read Part 1 here and Part 3 here. ♥ In spite of my being aware of all these last moments, I didn’t think that the last time I hugged my dog would be after I towelled him off in the trunk of our car. I offered to drive because I’d been…
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