“… an instant connection all that affection that started at conception has been cut short the cord has been cut the conversation door’s been shut where there was in the womb or not now there’s just… silence… …the conversation stopped with someone who lived someone you knew someone who was growing inside of you… …someone … Read More about Two Short Films
Early Morning, My Birthday – by Mary Oliver
The snails on the pink sleds of their bodies are moving among the morning glories. The spider is asleep among the red thumbs of the raspberries. What shall I do, what shall I do? The rain is slow. The little birds are alive in it. Even the beetles. The green leaves lap it up. What … Read More about Early Morning, My Birthday – by Mary Oliver
Mizuko Kuyō
A few months ago I rescued a Peace Lily from a giant hardware store chain. A few broken stems pushed it to the clearance section, but it was otherwise healthy. I made splints for the breaks using wooden chopsticks and a cut up drinking straw, and it healed nicely. Scarred and flowerless, but proudly showing … Read More about Mizuko Kuyō
Connections
Only connect! That was the whole of her sermon. Only connect the prose and the passion, and both will be exalted, And human love will be seen at its height. Live in fragments no longer. Only connect… – E.M. Forster • Howards End When I was in high school, one of the only people who … Read More about Connections
The Miscarrousel
If there were a single piece of art that sums up how I am feeling, it might be Henry Ford Hospital by Frida Kahlo: On July 4th, 1932, Frida suffered a miscarriage in the Henry Ford Hospital in Detroit. In this disturbing work, Kahlo paints herself lying on her back in a hospital bed after … Read More about The Miscarrousel
Mindfulness after Pregnancy Loss
Mindfulness is a state of active, open attention on the present. When you’re mindful, you observe your thoughts and feelings from a distance, without judging them good or bad. Instead of letting your life pass you by, mindfulness means living in the moment and awakening to experience. – via Psychology Today I have always … Read More about Mindfulness after Pregnancy Loss
Patience, Questions, Live
Metaphor
I made a piece of temporary beach art: Three tiny pebbles of different colours placed atop a large pebble. Seconds later, what was created was destroyed by a wave. The elements of the art were returned to the sea. Life is fragile. Life is temporary. Life can change in the blink of an eye.
Miscarriage Meds
I am making a memory box and it will be ready in about four weeks’ time… I’ll explain why then… Here’s a picture of the memory box rejects — all the medication I was prescribed: Doxycycline Hyclate (aka Vibramycin – post-op antibiotic): 100mg. Take 1 capsule by mouth 2 times daily. Docusate Sodium (stool softener … Read More about Miscarriage Meds
Interim
It’s been two weeks since my D&C, which means I can now exercise, have a bath, have sex, and use tampons. Slowly, slowly, I am physically returning to real life. Emotionally, I am dealing. Today feels like the first day of my new life: as a woman who has had a miscarriage. A new deep … Read More about Interim
